Here's to a fresh start??

I know that I have several journals/blogs, etc floating around in cyberspace. Why create another one? Well, I need something for myself again. Live Journal was what I needed in college, but my interest for that has died. Myspace is great for re-connecting with old friends/classmates, but is not a good place to "spill my business."

I have a trainer and work out with her once a week. I have been working out with her since July. I have not lost one single pound. I know that it is related to the fact that I only go to the gym 1-3 times a week and my food is probably not what it should be.

I know that she means well...I know she does. She has helped my boyfriend lose 100 pounds and dozens of inches over the last year. It's just that I don't feel like I can connect with her quite like he did.

I am frustrated because I can't seem to find something that works for me. Afterall, isn't that the point? Diets generally don't work, it's a lifestyle change. OK. Why did she tell me that maybe I should look into an appetite suppressant? Diet pills? Do I spend $140 a month to have you tell me that I should look into getting addicted to a diet pill? I just don't know....

I'd like to think that food and exercise is not the only problem. In fact, I'd like to think that there are several other factors and that all I can do is take it one step at a time.

I don't like counting calories...it doesn't work for me. I cannot make the recipes I find online because Kyle is a very picky eater. I mean, I can only make Taco Bake and Spaghetti so many times a week.

I've been thinking that maybe I'd look into a program where meals are shipped to me in perfect portion size. Of course I could always eat Weight Watchers or Lean Cuisine, but they are high in sodium and trading fat for high cholesterol is not ideal.

I get so frustrated..I know it's not easy. If it were, our country would not have the problems we do. I just wish I could figure out what works for me.

*Sigh*